A Day In The Life...

...Of a 2 year old. So I've been having a rough time recently - just over stressing about anything and everything that I can and not being able to turn my anxiety-attack-prone-mind off, so I thought that I should focus on something that makes me happy and calm. Like Sophie! Yesterday (perhaps because she could sense my impending mental breakdown) she was being so stinking cute that I couldn't help but smile and be happy with her! Here's some of the things she did in her day:

Below you will see what happens when I turn my back for a few seconds. That cupboard there is my pan cupboard - thus the small sauce pan you see on the floor in front of her feet. I left the kitchen for a moment to check on something, and when I came back I could hear Sophie saying "Go outside. Go outside, okay", so I looked and this is what I saw! This is the first time she's climbed into the cupboard, much less tried to shut herself in! :)

(Please understand that her face is always messy like this...because she's 2.) :)

Next, she saw that I was making cookies, and she decided to help. How did she help? Well, she pulled out this other pan and started saying "Cook cake! Cook cake, Sophie!" and then kept trying to put the pan (with her cookie in it) on the stove. Or she would grab my oven mitt and put it on, then push me back or to the side so I was clear of the oven and say "Stay. Okay? Stay. It's hot." This is what I tell her when I open the oven, so she has it down pretty good. (Don't worry, she didn't actually open the oven ever!)

 After "cooking" it was time to look out the windows. Realize that at this time it was dark out, and there are some bushes in front of our front window that need trimming, so she really couldn't see anything, but that didn't stop her! She actually made me look out of the square next to her (she called that square "Mama window" and her's "Sophie window"), but I was able to sneak away for a quick picture. :) The whole time she jabbered on (in whispers and hushed tones) and pointed at the imaginary things that were out there and told me which ones were scary. It was very educational. :)

Then, she just kept rushing the camera and laughing at the flash. Yes, she looks completely psychotic, but I still love this face!

Now I personally still had a rough day (I dropped the lid to my sugar container and it shattered!) but overall I still had a ton of fun with Sophie and Jon. :)

Jon helped Sophie to spin the fan - this was her favorite game of the night!

And just to really show off the mood of the night - here's one of Jon making his "scary" face. Ha ha ha, oh man I love this guy!

I love my family so much, and I'm so glad that no matter how crazy in my head I get, they are always here to lift me up and make me smile. Can't wait to add our little Ninja to the crew! :)

Babies Babies Everywhere!!!

Can I just say that I LOVE that a lot of my friends are pregnant/just having babies right now? I love it! It seems like within the last 9 months there has been an explosion of announcements! Whether it's their first or their 5th, it's so much fun to be able to see and hear about everyone's pregnancies or new little ones and hear them get excited about their upcoming bundles of sleepless joy! Maybe it's just because I'm so excited about Ninja joining the ranks of our family and that in turn makes me excited for others who are adding to theirs, but either way it's so much fun! Plus it's always fun to have people who relate to your weird pregnancy symptoms (swollen feet, weird psychotic dreams, a maddening hunger that hits you at 3 in the morning and won't let you sleep...not that that's the reason I'm awake right now or anything...yeah) and to hear about people who have symptoms that you either got lucky enough to skip or that you can completely relate to. I just love hearing about it all! And right now I have so many friends who are expecting that I have a hard time keeping track of them (pregnancy brain, anyone?) until I see an update on Facebook or on their blogs and I'm reminded. :) I just wish that I lived closer to some of these people so that we could keep in touch and complain about our symptoms in person rather than online, but hey I'll take what I can get. :) Anyway, I was just cyber-stalking some of my currently pregnant friends and wanted to give a big shout out to all the pregnant ladies and new mommies out there! I love hearing about you and your little ones so keep the updates coming!!! :)

(And if you're wondering if my lack of sleep right now is making me a little slap-happy..................I can neither confirm or deny these allegations, however it's probably true) :)

Ninja

On to happier notes. My baby is a ninja. No, not the baby that just turned 2, but the one housed in my uterus. I'm convinced he is a ninja, because these kicks are crazy! I'm almost half convinced that he may be the spawn of Chuck Norris (Chuck Norris doesn't need to have sex to get a girl pregnant, he just looks at a girl and says "Now" and she's knocked up), because I'm pretty sure he's roundhouse kicked me several times already, though I haven't told Jon this yet. ;) See with Sophia, she wasn't a kicker. She was a nudger, pusher, and a roller. Jon didn't feel her at all until I was 24 weeks, and even then he had to ask me if that was the baby or my pulse. Even when she was bigger she didn't kick a lot. But this little guy is tough! Jon felt him kick when he was only 17 and a half weeks!!! And I thought I felt him at 14 weeks, but my adjusted due date shows that I was only 13 weeks when I first felt him! It's just crazy how different he is from Sophia already, though it does leave a bit of dreaded terror to think what kind of firecracker I'm going to birth...Oh well, still so much to look forward to in June!!! :)

Biopsy - A Four Letter Word?

The thing that's on my mind these days (okay, so really there are lots, but right this second this is one) is skin biopsies. After I had Sophie I had a mole removed that was ugly, and it came back that it had some atypical cells in it. The doctors also call them "pre-cancer cells", but since that sounds a lot scarier than it is, I will stick with the actual name. Anyway, so about 7 weeks after having Sophie I had to go in to the dermatologist and have every mole on my body looked at with a little device (which that soon after birth let's just say that my body was still a disaster and laying there naked on the exam table while the dermatologist and her nurses looked me over was no fun!) that resulted in me getting a 3-inch football shaped chunk of skin cut out where the first mole had come from, along with another mole that was much smaller, but they had to go pretty deep to get out all of the atypical cells they found in that one. Neither of these were of any concern to me when I saw them, but apparently could have turned into something much worse. So on top of recovering from childbirth, now I had stitches to recover from as well. Good times. I was told to go back every year to have the same exam done, but last year our insurance was, well, not so helpful, so it didn't get done.

Fast forward to this year. I went last week to get checked and hoped against hope that they would look me over, say "everything looks great, just keep an eye of things" and let me go. No such luck. They found 3 spots that looked suspicious. So along with being massively uncomfortable seeing a new doctor (male this time too, ugh) and standing there in my paper gown while he and his two nurses looked me over, I then had to sit there even longer while I had three moles removed and now get to do the fun part of caring for these spots so they don't scar terribly while waiting for the biopsy results to tell me if there were 1) any atypical cells present and 2) if they got them all out the first time or if I'll have to go in for more. It sucks. Not going to lie. Of course I much rather have moles removed and chunks of skin cut out now than to get skin cancer and have to deal with that, but the whole experience to me is annoying, humiliating, painful, stressful, and just all around not a good time. I would much rather be worrying about getting a job right now than whether or not I'm going to have to get chopped up and studied some more. But no. Genetics and constant sunburns as a kid have taken that privilege away. I wasn't even a big tanner - I went to the tanning bed a few times, but not often. There was one summer where I tanned constantly, and that's when I lived in Bear Lake. Still dumb, but you see these girls who go tanning every week or more, and I can't help but wonder if they will have to deal with the same stuff I am. Hopefully no, because it sucks. But I'll never know. Anyway, I'm just venting right now, but hopefully through my vent everyone can remember to put on some sunscreen and get checked on for signs of anything that could lead to skin cancer or even just atypical cells so you don't have to go through what I am or worse. And please cross your fingers for me that my biopsies come back okay! :-\

It's a......

BOY!!!!! Or, as Jon likes to call it, a little baby tripod! ;) He is definitely one proud daddy, that's for sure! We had our anatomy ultrasound today and wouldn't ya know it, we're having a baby boy in June! Oh my goodness I am so stinking excited!!! I mean, if it had been a girl that would have been awesome too - but I really wanted a boy this time so I'm pretty dang happy! He was so cute to - when the nurse first started the ultrasound I think that he was asleep and he was facing my back, so she starts looking at his spine and suddenly he twitches a little and looks over his shoulder like "What the heck is going on???" He looked like he tried to go back to sleep but, of course, that darn wand was pushing up on him so he finally started squirming around for us. He even kicked the wand one time. :) He was crossing his little feet, which was adorable but wouldn't come out good in the picture, and he had his hands tucked up under his chin for the most part. Oh I just love him already! And Sophie (other than being super cranky because we subbed at a daycare this morning which she did not think was fun after the first hour or so) seems to be happy to have a cute little "Bo baby" or a little "brooder". :)

Anyway, here are the pictures we got (that are interesting anyway):

Here he is in all his glory! There were no doubts about it! :)

His cute little profile. <3

Another profile - you can see part of his little hand there by his face.

Ha ha, Sophie had a scary/creepy picture that looked like a skull and crossbones, so I had to put this one up of his face looking a little alien-ish. :)

And a closer one of his sweet little face. :)

I am getting so very very excited for June to get here! (Or if I'm lucky like I was with Sophie, possibly May!) I wasn't quite as far along as they originally thought (blah) so I'm 18 weeks and 6 days now, but either way, as long as he's here before we go to Utah for rotations I'm happy! :) Anyway, just wanted to share with my blogging-world friends and let you all know about our adorable little boy! :)